Sunday, December 28, 2014

Choices in the Forest

Jagged is
that daily reminder:
A tongue among fortresses,
a soul among songs,
That day we deliver
the bread of the lonely
to the hide of an animal
slain for her bones.
And deep in enchantment,
waits a forest of strangers
whose lives are a pinnacle
of grace of the moon.
We hinder the helpless
when helplessness beckons us;
We’re tinder for fires
whose spark ignites soon.
So walk this gray gravelly
path I have lain here
in tides of fair weather
outside the monsoons.
For deep from the ashes
of memories of mothers,
my father’s voice begs me
the cross for the spoon
As though a tall trader
with wagons a-covered
could promise me gifts,
the deal in my veins.
He’d tell me his riches
were worth more than eyeballs,
that seeing takes courage,
that deciding takes brains.
But this is a choice
that has met with resistance,
though obvious seems
the matter of fate.
With skin at the ready,
and knife blades to summon,
The call can be made
for too little, too late.
I once read a story
of men who imprison
and those who choose freedom,
who break open the shells.
There are those who choose bloodshed
and those who choose peace,
and their hearts are unlimited
as the great ocean’s swells
Plunge to her depths then,
and you’ll find more than water,
but life that teems shining
in tentacles, scales.
And if you can feel more than see in this world
Then the trader is right
when your gold
hits his scale.

CBF
--
Dec. 28, 2014

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

RC

RC
Gather all the things
you have decided not to feel;
Give them to
Yourself
as a gift
to be opened
One
by
One.
--
CBF
1/8/2014

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

New Year

New Year
We have this day before us
and what is more holy
than a new beginning?
It is the only time
our future is more
powerful than our past.
It is the only time our intention
can overcome our trends.
With this kiss of midnight,
a new era is bestowed.
Dig deep.
Grasp what is dearest to you.
Pull and cradle it forth.
Hold it high
to the light
to grow.
--
CBF
1-1-2014

Thursday, November 14, 2013

(An old one)
an oldest friend
Calm me in the photographs so they finally get a real smile out of me
How can you do this to me,
And I don't even love you.
Comfort gained its meaning sitting with you
Television backdrop to our own thoughts
Just being there for someone to listen
Rainy days
Freezing nights
The next best thing to being alone
Holding on to funeral memories like holding hands
And we don't know when and whether it makes sense at all
Driving home from high school days seemed so long ago
Now we frequent city streets in anything but silence,
being anything but boisterous.
God damn, the things I've said to you
Damn, the words you've spoken to me
But I find myself sitting on your couch and remembering,
A friendship that makes people ask questions,
And we always answer in the negative but casual, and smiling
We shake our heads and turn back to the music and find another glass of beer.
Letting me tell my stories until I wear out my voice,
And you try to tolerate my forgetfulness.
 let you stay silent or rant
And try to tolerate your negativity
My baseless idealism and your baseless anger
The dreams resulting combination make me laugh and roll my eyes
Thinking sometime we should be stuck in the past,
But all we do seems to imply
utter moving on
Leaves tossed up past my window
It doesn't matter that you would refuse the beauty in this.
We don't understand each other
to the point of curiosity and not always passing over
some kind of momentary hatred
But you care if I have a headache
And you kiss my cheek hello and goodbye
with some kinda distant compassion
And though I laugh when you try to be strong, too I sigh.
I wonder what you see
When you look at me,
And I wrote because I wonder
what I feel
When I write about you.
(April 2004)

Friday, November 8, 2013

New Practice/More Alive

New Practice
We sit and listen
really
Listen.
We fold hands together,
tuck tissues away into pockets and sleeves,
stand with each other
facing the fires.
We do not cradle,
stroke,
or soothe.
We hear the message,
affirm its present and past.
We solve problems
by letting them fully be
so that we can Fully Be
in this new world that has always
been
here.
We open up.
We share chairs
a couch,
blankets,
our sadnesses,
dreams.
We walk into the wide open night
a bit more fearless
than the hour before.
We stride into
the bright blooming dawn
just a bit
clearer
lighter
Alive.
--
CBF Nov. 8, 2013

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

short and spontaneous

short and spontaneous:
--
For that moment
in the chaos of confusion
pure light
jumped in.
--
Nights without moon
darkness treasured
Adjust your eyes.
--
The fall of the heart:
a leaf breathes
the street crumbles
a memory of the ocean
and all its Sound.
--
Once a reckoning
now forgiveness
like
to you,
no one was there
only because you
didn't turn around.
--
One paper proclaims
One fire reclaims.
Solid matter
so easily
becomes ash
and wind.
--
Tumble through the subway trail
home every evening from the same
to the same,
from the tired
to the comforting,
from gratitude to gratitude,
each place a heartbeat
leading to the next.
--
We admire
The greatness of things
steady and unyielding;
We are so much water
held together inside
so little skin.
--
Align one piece to another
day by day.
Suddenly your mind will match
your heart.
Suddenly your work
will center over your
soul.
--
In this roundabout
there is an exit
it comes whenever
you open your mouth and say,
"No."
--
The fear of one does not necessitate
the fear of another.
In times of crisis,
stay focused;
You know as much as your neighbor
about Light.
--
CBF
Oct. 22, 2013 (all)

Monday, October 21, 2013

places i am not/dreaming

Dear God
Where is my heart.
I sit alone bleeding
blue ink onto white page,
adoring the ocean shore
and other places
I am not.
The sun,
the sea,
the sky
Good books
sweet fruit
peace of mind,
flowing fabrics
quiet
quiet talk
soft and passionate
  embraces
All the notebooks in the world
Perfect pens
Time and space for thinking
Watching birds
and clouds
Light on my skin,
on the sand,
in my soul.
--
CBF Aug. 20, 2012